mmitti
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I've been on a plateau for the past month. Recent posts and stuff I've posted have helped me face that fact. There's the why. And there's the how.
Why: I realize I'm afraid of loose skin turning me into some kind of a freak. This is jumping way into the future - and out of the present. That's irrational and lays groundwork for sabotaging myself. That's irrational, nutty thinking.
How: Eating more than my stomach can comfortably hold. I do track everything I eat; so it's a subtle sabotage. When I'm not in the present, it kills me to leave any food on my plate - I'll be deprived! Fat Brain misses being able to eat a whole meal. I can just obsess all day about the next time I get to eat, but then it's only a small protein meal; no "comfort" about that.
Resolution: there are always posts about people gaining weight back weight several years out. Keeping with the above pattern is setting myself up early on to do that. I'm asking myself if I really want to go down that path. No, I don't. I've also pulled out my maturity and turned off food obsessed Fat Brain (for the moment). This morning I was eating scrambled eggs with cheese and spinach. I felt my stomach being satisfied; I could feel where the food stopped. I stopped eating and put the leftovers away, without wanting to throw a tantrum. One small step.
Lesson learned: I track my food every day. I'd be lost without doing that. I also now see that tracking incidents of eating disorder, plateaus, emotional triggers, etc., ALSO NEED TO BE TRACKED by me.
I'm so grateful to have this group because I know you all will understand and be supportive. Thanks.
Mary
Why: I realize I'm afraid of loose skin turning me into some kind of a freak. This is jumping way into the future - and out of the present. That's irrational and lays groundwork for sabotaging myself. That's irrational, nutty thinking.
How: Eating more than my stomach can comfortably hold. I do track everything I eat; so it's a subtle sabotage. When I'm not in the present, it kills me to leave any food on my plate - I'll be deprived! Fat Brain misses being able to eat a whole meal. I can just obsess all day about the next time I get to eat, but then it's only a small protein meal; no "comfort" about that.
Resolution: there are always posts about people gaining weight back weight several years out. Keeping with the above pattern is setting myself up early on to do that. I'm asking myself if I really want to go down that path. No, I don't. I've also pulled out my maturity and turned off food obsessed Fat Brain (for the moment). This morning I was eating scrambled eggs with cheese and spinach. I felt my stomach being satisfied; I could feel where the food stopped. I stopped eating and put the leftovers away, without wanting to throw a tantrum. One small step.
Lesson learned: I track my food every day. I'd be lost without doing that. I also now see that tracking incidents of eating disorder, plateaus, emotional triggers, etc., ALSO NEED TO BE TRACKED by me.
I'm so grateful to have this group because I know you all will understand and be supportive. Thanks.
Mary
