LovingLifeMore
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I know we have some new people here and they dont know my story. I come from a family that is big on both sides. My mother was the biggest and my uncle on my dad's side is the biggest on my dad's side. My father passed when I was a baby and my mother passed almost 7 years ago now, DEPRESSION hit hard when my mother passed. My highest weight was 736.I fought for years to get it down to 601 and I could not do it any more. My doctor helped push the process for the surgery. All the way that they did the physc eval for free. I started with the surgeon at 601lbs surgery day I was 528lbs and now little over a year and I am 350lbs. I started out walking even when I was heavy then dizzy spills happen and I fell alot and the the numbness started to sit in. Then the falling turned into not being able to get up after falling. I spent last year in the hospital and then I came home with the wheel chair. I named it little bertha. The all the physical therapy. Physical therapy says that I have not lost my muscles it is just the fact I can not balance now. So now my reg dr, the nuerologists, surgeon, physical therapy, and metal therapy says the skin graphing is what we are pushing for it to see if it will help me balance. I been at a stand still. But good news is that I still dont eat more than 3/4 cup of food. All blood work came back as normal. And I am doing so much better. Even when people says something about my size I always stop and ask do they know my situation. Even when kids do it I stop and inform them of the life challenges that I went through to get me to that point. I remember on time a little kid had a bag of chips and a soda with a candy bar and was saying something about my weight. I just simply told the child that the chips, candy and soda is what made me that way. Lets just say that the child put everything back and walked through the like with no junk food. I call that a win for the future on that child. But other then the past I am very healthy, funny lovable person that puts all her time to her kids. I did this surgery for my self and my kids. I want to be here for my kids and I remembered that it was harder on my mother when she decided to lose weight after I was fully grown and out of the house. But my mom did a good job even for her self and that was without the surgery that was only by dieting. I said I was doing this for me and my mom. For my mother so I can live longer and happier in her name and for myself so I will be able to be there for my kids. And for my 4 sons that deserves to have a mother that is more active. I have found out to love yourself through the whole thing is the key, I would never change the ideal of having the surgery. I would even do it sooner. This surgery saved my life. But just to let you the new people know. I am a survivor of being abused, raped, and gave away when I was younger. My mother being the main cause of the depression but forgiveness was the key to get back on track with getting my self back to normal. Life is never easy, but it is the way you do things that makes your life change.
