MamaBearOf4
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I know I have been on here for awhile now. I have not gave to much information on my self. So before surgery I will. I grew up being big. My mother was big and she would never allow me out side because she thought I would get hooked up with a boy. I was a good kid. At age 11 I start gaining weight. When I was 9 there was something that stressed me out to a point of eating my feelings. I had told my mother about it but they said I was lying. As years passed I gained more weight. My mother got another boyfriend and he started raping me from the age of 13 to 15. I told her but she said I was lying. She beat me for it. Depression and anger set in. The doctors said I was bipolar. They put me on meds that did not work of course but when I turned 16 I had gallbladder surgery. After that my mother moved me north to where my family was. At that time when she was done staying with her family she pushed me off on to a grown man for a place to stay. He was abusive and my mother knew but she never did anything to help. I finally got away from him and meet my older kids father. My ex was not physically abusive but he cheated all the time. I finally left him with all 3 boys. I made it on my own for a little while. Then I meet my husband now. 10 years ago I started talking to this man and a yr after talking we started our relationship. 4 yrs later we had a big surprise as my 4th son came into our lives. We have our up and downs but we work through them. He is my main support at home. After my baby was born I had depression but it went away real fast. My mother passed away before my baby was one. That sent depression through me so bad I made my self physically sick. Once I got over being sick I gained weight over a yr. I decided to move away from where I thought was home because it was to hard to look around that town without thinking about my mother and getting depressed. I moved to florida with my husband. I started my journey on losing weight Jan. 2015. When I came down here I was 736lbs. I started a strict diet. No sodas, cut the carbs as much as possible, and started walking. The doctor I had when I got here put me on diet pills and told me it was ok to only eat once a day. I did my best at that. I would keep my self busy all day so I would not eat but I dropped all the was to 516lbs. But I went north to help with my grandfather. He passed last year. He was a father figure to me as my father died when I was one. When I came back home I was over 600 again. I got a new doctor to help. And now I am so glad I did. We spent a year recording what I ate and tried meds again. I have been in therapy since and working with a dietitian. We finally said at the beginning of the yr that I wanted to try for the weightloss surgery and I did not know which one I wanted. But I went to the surgeon and he explained all the surgeries and I picked the bypass. Since I have had the help of my doctors to get everything done for this surgery. They do not understand it but I was completely healthy but over weight. At least until I went to my medical clearance. The ekg showed that I had a previous mini heart attack. But the doctor said I was taking the right steps to take care of it. Now you all know my back story. I am due for my surgery on the 6th and I am doing the pre op liquid diet now. I am down to 573lbs as of the 23rd of march. I am still working at it. I just thought with surgery coming up I should start it as a new beginning and I needed to get this out before this truely begin. I am only 33 yrs old but I have been through more then most my age. I never thought about having so much on me but my kids pull me through and my husband is so supportive of my choices.
