mmitti
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I've been working on getting off a plateau. Yesterday my eating was good with no "cheating." I did go to bed hungry because my last meal (small, of course) was at 5:30. I felt pissed off because I have to watch my roommate eat volumes of whatever she wants (overweight), while I can only eat small limited meals. I used to eat like she does. It's sick.
On the good hand, my roomie often eats in another room so I don't have to pine away watching her. She also doesn't try to sabotage me and supports me and is glad when I lose. She keeps certain snacks in her room so I don't know about them (and I never go looking!).
Getting into my own head, I realized one reason for the plateau was my fear of having volumes of loose skin and looking like a freak. I'm glad I was able to see that, and work to live in the present, not the future. That's no small feat.
I still feel deprived as I can only eat small meals, not even really a meal. I miss comfort food. I can easily eat too much food. When I do, I can feel the food up into my esophagus. It's uncomfortable, but it hasn't stopped me. It's amazing how insidious Fat Brain is.
When I have a good day of staying on program, I come to a crossroads. I either use the feeling of success to have another good day, OR I sabotage myself. I've been choosing the sabotage lately. I'm changing that today, just for today. Just focus on one day at a time.
Just as I track my food every day (I put it all down, good or bad), I need to track my mental and emotional state to help me keep on my program.
On the good hand, my roomie often eats in another room so I don't have to pine away watching her. She also doesn't try to sabotage me and supports me and is glad when I lose. She keeps certain snacks in her room so I don't know about them (and I never go looking!).
Getting into my own head, I realized one reason for the plateau was my fear of having volumes of loose skin and looking like a freak. I'm glad I was able to see that, and work to live in the present, not the future. That's no small feat.
I still feel deprived as I can only eat small meals, not even really a meal. I miss comfort food. I can easily eat too much food. When I do, I can feel the food up into my esophagus. It's uncomfortable, but it hasn't stopped me. It's amazing how insidious Fat Brain is.
When I have a good day of staying on program, I come to a crossroads. I either use the feeling of success to have another good day, OR I sabotage myself. I've been choosing the sabotage lately. I'm changing that today, just for today. Just focus on one day at a time.
Just as I track my food every day (I put it all down, good or bad), I need to track my mental and emotional state to help me keep on my program.
