Nal
Active Member
It has been 1 week since my surgery and I am getting stronger everyday. I am now up out of the bed and can sit semi comfortably in the living room which I love because I feel a little more human. Also, I can interact a little with my baby which makes me feel better. She has been really missing and needing my love and comfort. I have moments when I feel so helpless and bored. Now with this life changing surgery, I can no longer turn to food to fill my boredom. It's so funny because now I notice how much food surrounds us as a society. It's like every 2 seconds there is a food commercial on tv, geesh. No wonder people always want to eat! And every 5 mins my mom is cooking out of boredom too I guess. But now, when I smell food, I don't get hungry or salivate. It just smells good. I try to keep my mind preoccupied, but it's going to be a process of undoing a habit of fixating on food when that's all I have known. Although I'm not hungry, i do look forward to eating real food again. But it's mostly thinking about what healthy choices I am going to be making for myself and my children from now on whenever i do eat. I look forward to my new life. It's been a little tough, but then again it's only been a week