Today is a new day!

[Amaliafh]

I am here after about 5 years I had signed in and it never went anywhere. The dreaded " I can do it alone" Noone understands or knows what I am going through" I must be a failure if I have not lost all the weight in this amount of time! So many things to consider and ponder over. Today is a new day!. I am here with a humble heart to ask for support and understanding and also accountability.

I am 10 years out and have complications that have resulted in many hospitalizations due to the inability to maintain a balance with food and exercise. This last hospitalization in Jan 2026 after the second year of hospitalizations they said there was a kink in my intestine by the time I made it to the Emergency room the intestine connecting my Roux -y had necrafied or lost blood flow. It resulted from a bowel obstruction. It was scary and I was able to get there in time. It is not a good feeling, and I have to change everything at this point. My mindset, my eating and my exercise habits. I have been in school for over 6 years and at the same time worked in a high stress environment for many years working in a Christian women's shelter and recovery program as a program supervisor. I believe God has removed that stress and burden something I would not be able to do on my own. I am ready to take control and take my health and wellbeing seriously. How many more chances will I get to start this journey. I am in a low stress environment. I am in recovery at the moment and have 4 weeks more of light duty. In this time I will get a plan of action together. I have counseled women for many years and now it is time to take some encouragement and suggestions of my own. So here I am to ask for your help and encouragement! Yes, I am crying as I am writing this. The first step is admitting that my life is out of control with food insecurities, body image and past hurts that plague me

 

[Book1sh]

God will be with you every step of the way. I’ve been through programs where they make you feel like a dirty rotten sinner if you cheat and eat a piece of cake or something. God isn’t like that. He loves you so much. He cares about how you feel and whether you are healthy. When you pray he helps you with that one second part where you are going to make that decision. But he doesn’t MAKE you not eat. He gives you a choice and the consequences are the natural logical ones where you gain weight and feel lousy. But He’s there for the long haul. All the way. Lean into Him.