Mommachops71
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I think for a while when I was with Kaiser Permanente before Covid we had to go to the hospital and so I will get weighed & then have the nutritional team whine at me and their medical voices. It was just so annoying and then it seem like anytime I wasn’t going to the meetings or the support group. I was losing weight on my own and then I would remember a childhood snack or something that I wanted as a kid, but couldn’t have because it wasn’t in the budget and then I would buy it in bulk, because I could not caring about all the sugar in the carbs and this and that I was always sabotaging my progress so the next time I had to go to a Whine session I would leave out of there with so much hurt that I just wish these people would leave me alone until I just dropped out and just wouldn’t do it now that I’m with a new insurance and I had to come out of pocket for the 360 program that my bariatric surgeon has I think in the and then on top of that because he said I could have it if I just do this this this that that this that this that and just a matter of 3 to 4 months it’s somehow put a fire under me that I’m not sabotaging myself and I couldn’t even if I wanted to because a lot of the things that I think I wanted the time my body just says oh well we’re about to digest this you’re gonna get sick nauseated and it’s gonna come out one way or the other so What? I think just knowing that this is something that I really really really wanna do besides have that carrot cake, whatever dessert that I wanted to have that this is just so much more important and I’m up for the task. I just have to write my letter. I’ve joined a bariatric group, which is this, and, I’m on the road to do everything else which has been accomplished, so just wanted to put in that