I am 10 years out and have complications that have resulted in many hospitalizations due to the inability to maintain a balance with food and exercise. This last hospitalization in Jan 2026 after the second year of hospitalizations they said there was a kink in my intestine by the time I made it to the Emergency room the intestine connecting my Roux -y had necrafied or lost blood flow. It resulted from a bowel obstruction. It was scary and I was able to get there in time. It is not a good feeling, and I have to change everything at this point. My mindset, my eating and my exercise habits. I have been in school for over 6 years and at the same time worked in a high stress environment for many years working in a Christian women's shelter and recovery program as a program supervisor. I believe God has removed that stress and burden something I would not be able to do on my own. I am ready to take control and take my health and wellbeing seriously. How many more chances will I get to start this journey. I am in a low stress environment. I am in recovery at the moment and have 4 weeks more of light duty. In this time I will get a plan of action together. I have counseled women for many years and now it is time to take some encouragement and suggestions of my own. So here I am to ask for your help and encouragement! Yes, I am crying as I am writing this. The first step is admitting that my life is out of control with food insecurities, body image and past hurts that plague me.