Binge

[mmitti]

The last 2 days have been a learning experience. I realized that toast is a trigger for me, esp. toast with peanut butter. Twice in one day I ate 2 pieces at a time. I could feel my stomach being full up to my gullet. Not pain, but very uncomfortable. It was really a binge. Today I pitched the bread and peanut butter.

I am very early on in my post op. I can't let this happen again. Today I have a renewed appreciation for the size of my sleeve and why I am limited to small portions.

I'm working on learning from this and working through Fat Brain's tentacles. I see a therapist, I am journaling, I'm currently listening to "Women, Food and God" by Geneen Roth. It was in a list of books posted by Brenda. Another one I'm going to listen to is "The power of now," by Tolle.

I also so looked forward to real coffee. I had some today, and felt no big rush; I've been drinking decaf and saw no difference.

I feel positive today that I am back on track. I'm glad to have this forum of people who understand what I'm going through.

I'm hitting my 6 weeks mark this week. Boy, time does march on.

 

[mmitti]

THANK you so much for your honesty, Mary. This is a thing so many of us are unable to embrace. our eating disorders just don't want us to be able to see or tell the truth. they distract us with other things like, "wouldn't that taste good?" and "it's just one little bite, you can have it!" then it turns into a binge. and once you've broken your vow, the eating disorder says, "well, you already messed up, might as well go for it and write this day off for good."

You'll slip again some time, but you are intelligently aware of the thing now and have been victimzed by it in a most horrible way, after you've gone through so much to change your life and wanted to commit to a healthy lifestyle. Now you can get over it. You've caught the demon and now you can kill it or set it free. in either case, your body has a warrior in you.

Keep fighting and winning! You're such a great example for others here.

Thank you, Diane. Your wisdom and support mean a lot to me.

 

[Brenda2010]

The last 2 days have been a learning experience. I realized that toast is a trigger for me, esp. toast with peanut butter. Twice in one day I ate 2 pieces at a time. I could feel my stomach being full up to my gullet. Not pain, but very uncomfortable. It was really a binge. Today I pitched the bread and peanut butter.

I am very early on in my post op. I can't let this happen again. Today I have a renewed appreciation for the size of my sleeve and why I am limited to small portions.

I'm working on learning from this and working through Fat Brain's tentacles. I see a therapist, I am journaling, I'm currently listening to "Women, Food and God" by Geneen Roth. It was in a list of books posted by Brenda. Another one I'm going to listen to is "The power of now," by Tolle.

I also so looked forward to real coffee. I had some today, and felt no big rush; I've been drinking decaf and saw no difference.

I feel positive today that I am back on track. I'm glad to have this forum of people who understand what I'm going through.

I'm hitting my 6 weeks mark this week. Boy, time does march on.

First, congratulations for admitting this, it takes a really strong person to do that! And tossing the bread and peanut butter was the best thing you could do. You know that your eating disorder will not allow you to have just a taste so that was YOU controlling IT.

You are putting in so much work between therapy and reading to fight this... I have no doubt that you will be successful in this battle. I'm really proud of you.

 

[mmitti]

First, congratulations for admitting this, it takes a really strong person to do that! And tossing the bread and peanut butter was the best thing you could do. You know that your eating disorder will not allow you to have just a taste so that was YOU controlling IT.

You are putting in so much work between therapy and reading to fight this... I have no doubt that you will be successful in this battle. I'm really proud of you.

Thanks. You are a good role model!