13YrPostOp
New Member
Hi Everyone,
I had my surgery 13 years ago and although I have maintained my weight loss, I cannot tell you how easy it is to forget the basics. I just read a thread about eating protein first...when did I start eating carbs first? I walked religiously right after my surgery for a year outside. Now I am too embarrassed to walk outside (and I am thin). I say I am thin, but when I look in the mirror all I see is a bigger person who looks terrible in everything I put on. About 2 years ago I got sick with H-Pylori and I stayed in bed for days, then weeks, and before I knew it 2 years has passed. When I have to go someplace I get up and go. But I don't put forth any effort to look nice and I don't like the way clothes fit me at all. I used to be able to put outfits together in my head. Now I put on 10 outfits before I finally settle on a workout outfit and a hat. I am on antidepressants and all of that. But I really believe I have to do the work. I am just overwhelmed and I don't know where to start. I don't feel like I can do my job well, I don't feel like I am good enough. I am 48 years old. I am too embarrassed to exercise in a gym, yet I have a reformer and can do it here but I don't. The feeling of dealing with everything I need to do is overwhelming me and paralyzingly me. Have any of you experienced this after your surgery?
I had my surgery 13 years ago and although I have maintained my weight loss, I cannot tell you how easy it is to forget the basics. I just read a thread about eating protein first...when did I start eating carbs first? I walked religiously right after my surgery for a year outside. Now I am too embarrassed to walk outside (and I am thin). I say I am thin, but when I look in the mirror all I see is a bigger person who looks terrible in everything I put on. About 2 years ago I got sick with H-Pylori and I stayed in bed for days, then weeks, and before I knew it 2 years has passed. When I have to go someplace I get up and go. But I don't put forth any effort to look nice and I don't like the way clothes fit me at all. I used to be able to put outfits together in my head. Now I put on 10 outfits before I finally settle on a workout outfit and a hat. I am on antidepressants and all of that. But I really believe I have to do the work. I am just overwhelmed and I don't know where to start. I don't feel like I can do my job well, I don't feel like I am good enough. I am 48 years old. I am too embarrassed to exercise in a gym, yet I have a reformer and can do it here but I don't. The feeling of dealing with everything I need to do is overwhelming me and paralyzingly me. Have any of you experienced this after your surgery?