I hate this.

[MamaBearOf4]

Between being stress out and having my foot cut from going to the beach I am right now having a hard time to move around now. My foot hurt form the cut and if I hit it the wrong way it starts bleeding. With the stress I have not been eating the right way. Just this week I have one kids to go to the doctors on Tuesday and therapy after that. Then wednesday I have 2 sons and my self a doctor appointment and Thursday I have another doctor appointment. And I have to make sure I am back home at 12:00 to get my youngest son from the bus. So much fun.

 

[MamaBearOf4]

The stress is from my 13 year old. Saturday started out normal I went and washed clothes and then went grocery shopping. When I came back he came out to help take in the stuff. He seen I had bought beans. My husband loves beans so I cook them for him and the kids. Well he made a comment that I was going to cook beans and I joked around with him. I told him that they was going to eat beans all week. He could see I had other stuff back there. But he pops out his mouth "You can suck my d***". I told him that I wanted to punch him in the mouth and everything in me I wanted to. But I am so glad I did not. Because after that he ran away. I called the police to help find him and they never came. But my son came back after walking for awhile. Then the cops called me to ask if I wanted to report him as a run away. I just told them I did not need them any more because he came home. But I called the crises care unit and had them come and see what they can do to help with him. Because as I sat and waited for them I caught him on camera punching himself in his face as hard as he could. Then they came and talked to him and another talked to me. Everything go straightened out. My husband talked to him and set him straight. Then Sunday running and getting things ready to go swimming with the kids. I went to walmart to get some stuff with my husband and the 3 younger boys. Well before I left walmart dcf or cps called me. They was at my house. They needed to talk to me. Apparently I punched my son in the stomach and my husband is always drunk and a bunch of other stuff. I told the lady that came look I have not laid a hand on that boy. Even though I felt like it. But I have in on camera hitting himself. She went through my kids asking them about my husband drinking. I told her clearly my husband is a roofer so I allow him to drink when he comes home. He is not abusive at all. He does not lay a hand on the boys nor my self. That it does not matter about him drinking because I never drink and I am always at home with the kids. So between the doctors I have to deal with this and the kids are half days this week because this is the last week of school. I just can't believe my son would lie and say I punched him in the stomach. How else would they get that besides him saying it. I have not been able to keep anything down besides water today or yesterday.

 

[MamaBearOf4]

I tried to stay in my room all day today to get the stress down but of course the kids are to use to having me around to help them that I am the first one they come to. Then my 2 momma boys wanted to sit right with me. So yeah alone time is when they go to bed. And they are all down now. So I am about to take a shower and sit back on my bed in the air conditioner, hope for this sunburn to calm down from yesterday and read my book for another hour or so and then off to bed time i go.

 

[Texnoble]

I tried to stay in my room all day today to get the stress down but of course the kids are to use to having me around to help them that I am the first one they come to. Then my 2 momma boys wanted to sit right with me. So yeah alone time is when they go to bed. And they are all down now. So I am about to take a shower and sit back on my bed in the air conditioner, hope for this sunburn to calm down from yesterday and read my book for another hour or so and then off to bed time i go.

Mama- I think kids learn bad language that they are anxious to just "try on for size." I heard a saying once when my son was growing up, "it's every generation's responsibility to shock their parents." My Mom had the beatniks, we had hippies and then there were goths. Who knows why, but kids have that urge to push away without regard to our feelings. Just take care of you for now.

 

[MamaBearOf4]

I am. Me and my therapist is working through the emotional problem he has set on me. I know I am a good mother but he just made me feel like I was not. I think he went up and beyond to shock me. Because I had to walk away before I hurt him. And I try so hard not to hurt them. His step dad scared him though. He came later on after he got done with him with tears in his eyes and said sorry for what he said and everything but then he turned around and lied to someone about me punching him in the stomach. I am not that mean to do something like that. I hate that he said it but I have to roll with the punches. If you looked at my kids none of them have marks on them but you look at me. I have right now at least 4 bruises and I don't know where they have came from. I don't remember getting hit or even hitting something. so it is what it is

 

[ttyson]

I hope your son gives you a break soon. Stay strong, they need you and take care of yourself. Sending positive mom vibes!

 

[MamaBearOf4]

Yeah I know. I just had to break my older 2 up. They was fighting over something stupid. And my 12 yr old son is a momma's boy as well. Right now my oldest is getting all kinds of hell from my 12 yr old. I know that they all will hit that age. And I keep trying to make a difference by keeping my cool. It does not help that his therapist now thinks that he is starting to cut his self. I really hope that is not the case. I hope he does not start that. I would hate it.