3momchaos
Member
I am going to be 2 years post op in a couple months. 2 months from today now that I look at the date. I haven’t posted much recently because I haven’t had much to add or contribute. I do find myself in a bit of situation though. I’ve always told people that the success of weight loss surgery depends on mentality. I still completely agree with that. Being determined to be honest with myself and everyone here is something that I find important. I lied to myself all the time before I thought of surgery. Lied to myself that my size didn’t bother me, what I ate didn’t mean anything, and how I was confident enough to go through life without peoples opinions of me not mattering. My size did bother me. What I eat matters. Most peoples opinions don’t matter-but my family knowing that I am doing everything I can for my health does.
I’ve gained about 15lbs since the winter. A lot of that has to do with putting on muscle from being completely inactive for about a year. Truthfully, I know that my muscle mass suffered greatly after surgery, and not just because of the surgery but because of my fibromyalgia pain which caused me to be even more inactive than usual. My medication for the fibromyalgia might have something to do with the weight gain but probably not much.
In an effort to be totally honest I just haven’t been as mentally committed as I need to be recently. Maybe it’s the summer, or the kids being home from school, or just that I got tired of it all and missed some of my old unhealthy ways. In any case, I put on some jeans that I wore over the winter and while they fit, they are snug. All of my current summer clothes fit just the way they always have. I don’t weight myself as religiously as I used to. I depend on how my clothes fit to keep me knowing where I’m at. I never measured myself before or after surgery, and since I was doing almost all appointments virtually, I was never measured in my doctors office. I know my thighs are a little bigger, but that could be from muscle. My waist is a little bigger too, but not enough for me to worry. However, trying on the jeans did give me cause to pause. I paused and thought about how I’ve been treating my body lately. Definitely not as well as I should. So I’m committing to getting back on the forum more often, making sure I’m being honest with myself, with all of you, and with my support system. I refuse to spiral into habits which brought my health into such disarray.
I’ve gained about 15lbs since the winter. A lot of that has to do with putting on muscle from being completely inactive for about a year. Truthfully, I know that my muscle mass suffered greatly after surgery, and not just because of the surgery but because of my fibromyalgia pain which caused me to be even more inactive than usual. My medication for the fibromyalgia might have something to do with the weight gain but probably not much.
In an effort to be totally honest I just haven’t been as mentally committed as I need to be recently. Maybe it’s the summer, or the kids being home from school, or just that I got tired of it all and missed some of my old unhealthy ways. In any case, I put on some jeans that I wore over the winter and while they fit, they are snug. All of my current summer clothes fit just the way they always have. I don’t weight myself as religiously as I used to. I depend on how my clothes fit to keep me knowing where I’m at. I never measured myself before or after surgery, and since I was doing almost all appointments virtually, I was never measured in my doctors office. I know my thighs are a little bigger, but that could be from muscle. My waist is a little bigger too, but not enough for me to worry. However, trying on the jeans did give me cause to pause. I paused and thought about how I’ve been treating my body lately. Definitely not as well as I should. So I’m committing to getting back on the forum more often, making sure I’m being honest with myself, with all of you, and with my support system. I refuse to spiral into habits which brought my health into such disarray.
