The Struggle : March 1st

[missyinacage]

Hello again. I found committing myself in writing to be effective so I'm going to continue to do so. I think it's vital to acknowledge struggles. It's too easy to hide issues due to shame or fear and I know exactly where that road leads. I've done a lot of work on my diet and my health. Now I have to get my relationship with food to a healthy place. Does it ever just get .. easier? I mean, I want to be aware but maybe less close to the edge of obsessed.

Last Week Success: Logged everything! Which really keeps me on track, so I lost a few more pounds.

Goal for this week: Since I'm able to eat more now, I need to add more veggies/fruits to my meal plan for the week. My sole focus no longer has to be just protein so it's time to add more healthy foods/snacks.

 

[3momchaos]

Sounds like you’re taking control and that’s awesome. I’ve been mentally struggling, which leads me to not want to eat. I’ve always been the opposite of an emotional eater, I guess emotional starvation? I don’t know lol but I can’t eat when I’m upset, but when I’m over it I tend to over do things. While I haven’t done that, I have probably been eating fewer calories than I should be at this point. So yesterday I was thinking, why do I feel like absolute crap, like mentally/emotionally. Then I remembered that my thyroids really off, my med levels are being adjusted down bc of the weight loss, my estrogen levels are changing bc of the weight loss, so there's a lot happening chemically that will eventually even out once I'm weight stable. In the meantime I just have to take a step back and realize what is out of my control. So my goal for this week is to keep better track of my calories, protein, water, and get outside to enjoy the sunshine!

 

[JudyNY]

Yay! It is March and spring is right around the corner!! My struggle is getting in the mood to move my body. While I have been doing some exercise and/or movement, I am so looking forward to being able to get outside and walk. Also, I feel my calorie intake has crept up on me so I need to work on that. On the plus side my water intake has been great and well exceeding my goal. I guess making myself drink a big glass of water before I have any coffee is a good thing.

 

[missyinacage]

Yay! It is March and spring is right around the corner!! My struggle is getting in the mood to move my body. While I have been doing some exercise and/or movement, I am so looking forward to being able to get outside and walk. Also, I feel my calorie intake has crept up on me so I need to work on that. On the plus side my water intake has been great and well exceeding my goal. I guess making myself drink a big glass of water before I have any coffee is a good thing.

Right there with you! I was motivated to go for a walk outside yesterday because it was almost 50. Sadly, it turns out I am cold AF so I only made it 3 blocks. But I cannot wait to get out and just walk around in the sunshine!! I have a small coffee in the morning and do not allow myself to make an iced until I have consumed 32oz of actual water. It's amazing how quick that goes lol

 

[Meg]

Looking forward to some beautiful spring weather! I also need to move more. I finally got cleared for weight training, so I’m meeting with a trainer tomorrow and hopefully twice a week for the next month. I can’t wait to get out and walk too!
I also need to keep track of my liquid intake, I don’t think I’m drinking enough water.

 

[missyinacage]

Sounds like you’re taking control and that’s awesome. I’ve been mentally struggling, which leads me to not want to eat. I’ve always been the opposite of an emotional eater, I guess emotional starvation? I don’t know lol but I can’t eat when I’m upset, but when I’m over it I tend to over do things. While I haven’t done that, I have probably been eating fewer calories than I should be at this point. So yesterday I was thinking, why do I feel like absolute crap, like mentally/emotionally. Then I remembered that my thyroids really off, my med levels are being adjusted down bc of the weight loss, my estrogen levels are changing bc of the weight loss, so there's a lot happening chemically that will eventually even out once I'm weight stable. In the meantime I just have to take a step back and realize what is out of my control. So my goal for this week is to keep better track of my calories, protein, water, and get outside to enjoy the sunshine!

That is a lot going on. I always forget that all my physical changes are not missing inches and also involve hormone changes etc. That is some great insight. And I'm glad you recognized it. I'm trying to be as supportive of my own issues as they come as I would be to someone else. It's funny how easily we can get down on ourselves but work to build others up. Thanks for the reminder that it's not just weight that is changing.

 

[mmitti]

Last week success: tracking everything I eat; getting a little more movement in; weighing and measuring what I eat.

Goal for this week: don't eat between assigned eating times; drink more water; start walking outside.

I'm still way overeating, despite tracking everything. I skipped the bariatric support group meeting last night b/c I was ashamed that I'm still so fat - people would see me as a failure. I had my one year post surgery appt. recently. I've lost 70 pounds but it was early on; then I stopped. I weigh 300 pounds, and am still FAT. That said, I haven't given up. I feel I can go day by day and make slow progress.

 

[missyinacage]

Last week success: tracking everything I eat; getting a little more movement in; weighing and measuring what I eat.

Goal for this week: don't eat between assigned eating times; drink more water; start walking outside.

I'm still way overeating, despite tracking everything. I skipped the bariatric support group meeting last night b/c I was ashamed that I'm still so fat - people would see me as a failure. I had my one year post surgery appt. recently. I've lost 70 pounds but it was early on; then I stopped. I weigh 300 pounds, and am still FAT. That said, I haven't given up. I feel I can go day by day and make slow progress.

It is so hard to give up your negative thought processes regarding food and weight. DO NOT HIDE! Go to support group if you can. They're there to support you, not judge you. It is okay to struggle. You lost 70 and have kept that much off. You are not "still fat" .. you are a LOT less fat. You had some success last week and you have committed to a goal for this week. I'm trying to be nicer to myself. You should too! <3

 

[mmitti]

Thanks, Missy.

 

[Roni]

Hmm I had my first set back on the 2nd I was supposed to start the applesauce consistency of foods. I was told I could make scrambled eggs. 15days out from surgery, well I was very excited. So I scrambled up three eggs. I managed to eat about 2 of the three eggs but my tummy was so mad at me. The dogs got one egg. i didn’t feel like I could eat anything all day my tummy never really settled. Even drinking water was no fun. After I finished my errands I laid down and couldn’t get comfortable. Started having abdominal pain. Searched the site for overeating and it didn’t really have anything I could find re overeating for a meal. But then I thought maybe gas pain(it wasn’t GERD), so I took some Tums. That was an awakening. Less than two min later it was bringing up fluids and even some chunks of egg. Felt much better. I could beat myself up or I could learn my lesson from it. DO NOT OVER EAT, especially 15 days after surgery. I put myself back on full liquids for two more days to give my tummy to settle down. Yesterday I had 2 oz of steak with 2 0z mashed potato For my big meal. Everything went down fine. Breakfast has been oatmeal so I am doing well. Well just sharing it has been a week for sure.

 

[JudyNY]

Hmm I had my first set back on the 2nd I was supposed to start the applesauce consistency of foods. I was told I could make scrambled eggs. 15days out from surgery, well I was very excited. So I scrambled up three eggs. I managed to eat about 2 of the three eggs but my tummy was so mad at me. The dogs got one egg. i didn’t feel like I could eat anything all day my tummy never really settled. Even drinking water was no fun. After I finished my errands I laid down and couldn’t get comfortable. Started having abdominal pain. Searched the site for overeating and it didn’t really have anything I could find re overeating for a meal. But then I thought maybe gas pain(it wasn’t GERD), so I took some Tums. That was an awakening. Less than two min later it was bringing up fluids and even some chunks of egg. Felt much better. I could beat myself up or I could learn my lesson from it. DO NOT OVER EAT, especially 15 days after surgery. I put myself back on full liquids for two more days to give my tummy to settle down. Yesterday I had 2 oz of steak with 2 0z mashed potato For my big meal. Everything went down fine. Breakfast has been oatmeal so I am doing well. Well just sharing it has been a week for sure.

I could only handle 1 egg in the beginning, now 7 months out I can do 2 if I'm only eating eggs. I find I can't each as much in the mornings as well so I usually old off breakfast until mid-morning.